Since the age of 8, when I fell off my bike and broke my nose, I've been anxious around bikes. I kept riding with my family, but around age 9 exercise became a duty, not about fun. Exercise was something I was supposed to do so that I looked a certain way. It took self-discipline.
For the last year, I've been pushing back against my love-hate on-off relationship with exercise. I've completely relaxed around it, taking a period with almost no exercise just to give myself a chance to reset. I'm not pushing myself at all anymore. And that's all it's taken - 10 months later, I'm so active and having so much fun!
There is now space to see what riding a bike is actually like. Cool wind in your face, a feeling of freedom and strength, childlike joy.